Helloooo Transition!

I figured I probably better keep track of my transitioning phase. So here are the first two wigs I was wearing....

"Renee"

"Celtic Girl"

And the two-strands...

Stats:

-22 weeks post-relaxer

-14 weeks till my BC (at least for now lol)

I'm gonna try some new styles with my two-stands so I can get outta this boring stage so more pics to come next week!

Going Down The Tube

I think all of America and pretty much the world has realized the face of television has changed. We're now in a time where people would rather see meltdowns and catfights rather than genuine comedy and edge-of-your-seat drama. Reality TV has truly taken over. 20 shows have been cancelled between ABC, NBC and CBS.

Although some of these shows maybe weren't the best, here are struggling actors trying to make a name for themselves while they are overshadowed by the next reality star that gets their 15 minutes of fame. You almost ask...what's the need for real actors anymore? For goodness sakes they have a new show coming on called 'Jersey Couture'....do we have to continue to make shows about being who are from Jersey?? #justsayin'. Now I won't lie there's some reality shows I can't get away from (Basketball Wives, Keeping Up With The Joneses, Bad Girls Club) but I'm ready for better dramas, real (not corny) comedy, and a show that will hold my interest.

I do still have faith in my favorites; Glee, Law & Order: SUV...and I just got hip to Grey's Anatomy again after that CRAZY season finale. If you didn't see it YOU. ARE. MISSING. OUT. But I have a glimmer of hope for the fall season. NBC has stepped up their game and will be having a new show called 'The Undercovers' starring Boris Kodjoe. Finally black main characters not in the typical roles...right on!

Even though I felt like the preview gave almost everything away, it still looks like it's gonna be a good

one. And my hope is definitely renewed after hearing Tia Mowry confirm 'The Game' WILL have new

episodes on BET starting this fall.

Yeah TV may be going down the tube but hopefully it'll get some support to last a little longer

No Sir Not My Parade

This song is the epitome of how I feel today

The Hair Debate (once again)

If you've been following this blog for sometime it's no secret that I change my hair far too often. But you're only young once right? So last summer I was technically transitioning from relaxed to natural by wearing weaves.

All was well until I took the thing out and did not enjoy taking care of two textures of hair. Although I did enjoy my rod set.

So I said "f-it" and got a relaxer. And boy oh boy was that thing silky smooth perfection.

But I got the weave itch again and had two sew-ins back to back. I got my last sew-in in December which I relaxed the day before I got it so my edges would sit nicely. But after 4 months it was time to take it out. And to my surprise my hair grew like CRAZY!

This is the longest it's ever been. So I came to face a decision of again dealing with two textures (I had at least 3-4 inches of new growth), relax or go back to weaves. Well my bank account said no to weaves. I considered relaxing again because I had gained so much growth I thought why not try to keep it up, but I knew it could be more damaging later on. And now natural is knocking at my door and you know what? I'm letting it in!

I've made the conscious decision to go natural. For the summer I have two-strand twists but come August/September and maybe sooner, I'm doing the big chop and not looking back. I'm getting some great tips and gawking at naturals on Black Girl With Long Hair....and I still read Black Hair Care Forum from time to time (these websites are addictive I tell you!). So I will most definitely be documenting this journey. There is finally no more debate!

Bravo Alicia!

I finally watched Alicia Keys' new video "Unthinkable" and all I can say is BRAVO! The song itself is beautiful....wasn't a big fan of her album but the song is the business. And having Chad Michael Murray is a good look...love the story line, love it all!

Did you catch her playing Snake on the old Nokia phone...classic!!

Absolutely Delicious

Happy Cinco de Mayo!

I look forward to this holiday because it gives me a reason to eat mexican food ALLL day long. I might throw in a few margaritas but dang they're so full of calories!! Maybe half of one though. Anyhoo, enjoy the day KabQueens!

Fear. We loathe it but yet we sometimes embrace it. I chose to talk about fear as a way to usher in writing/blogging again.

Fear can paralyze us from doing our greatest deeds and committing our deepest passions in life. The world of the unknown can hold back the blessings that God desires to give. I say this because I know it.

I can’t give a concrete fact on why I started blogging, I just did. I read so many others blogs on a daily basis, I just though I’d give it a shot. And I did and wanted to quit more than once. Why? Fear, plain and simple. Fear of no one wanting to listen to what I had to say. Fear of my blog being overshadowed and unknown. Fear of failing at such a simple thing as blogging. A lot of thought into something so little huh?

It’s what fear and especially jealousy and envy can do. Today I heard envy is basically resenting what God has blessed someone else with. That right there shut me up. After I set up Kabuki Queen my enjoyment for reading other blogs slowly became competition in my head. I’d question why they had so many followers, or such a great design or good topics. I started to forget what God had begun in me and an outlet of enjoyment became, well, not enjoyable. I stayed away from KabQueen and reading other blogs because I didn’t feel up to par with mine and reading others would only magnify what I wasn’t doing or felt that I couldn't do. Also adding to the fact that I was sulking in my current situation of being jobless, school-less and living with my parents again, no friends or boyfriend around.

I let my circumstances shape my attitude. I know this makes me sound so ugly, bitter and juvenile. But I’ve had a turning point. I’m not gonna promise a new Kabuki Queen. I’m gonna promise to be honest at all times, to share what’s on my mind whether you agree or don’t and most of all let this blog be a reflection of me, embracing me and loving me in spite of any circumstances. No fear.

For the readers who know I follow their blogs and to future readers whose blogs I’ll discover and start to follow: I support you a 110%. You’re expressing who you are and I applaud and admire it! We are our own community of people who want to share thoughts, feelings and whatever else comes to mind; to me it’s a beautiful thing. No jealousy, no envy. Just love and support.

So hopefully you understand where I’m coming from, if not well I feel better that I got it all out and that’s what counts. Whether you’re at work, home, Starbucks or wherever raise your water, coffee, drink or even food to being you with NO FEAR!

P.S. Thank you to all who have supported Kabuki Queen with comments or even just reading, I appreciate it, truly.