Monday, June 1, 2009

I Think I Love Her -- Gucci

Monday, June 1, 2009
I'm sitting here in my room trying to figure out why I'm pursuing a relationship with someone that is guaranteed, not my husband. I'm young, so it's not as if I'm looking to settle down right now, but why do people choose the wrong answer when they know ahead of time that it's the wrong answer? I'm really attracted to this guy, that shall not be named, who I see from time to time. We're pretty exclusive, well, as far as I can tell (I'm not getting it in with anyone). The twist to this story is that I have a gut feeling about him that tells me daily to get out while I can, but it only makes me more and more addicted to dude. He is hott! Anyway, beyond the hotness, he doesn't do much for me. We talk, we hang out, but when it comes down to him taking the lead role/initiative to actually court this sista, he's pretty much insufficient. At this point in my life I'm used to being taken out to restaurants, movies, extracurriculars; I'm used to my guy coming to scoop me or send me flowers or vmail in the middle of the day telling me he was thinking about me. This dude, NOT EVEN. I like him because he is the perfect image of my "manly man", but I just don't want to get hung up on his pretty eyes, large pecs, and cute smile. I know what I should do, but I just can't seem to do it. Anyone feel me?

1 comments:

Erica Jordan said...

um yes i do!

it's easier said than done to let go. its like you wanna believe that something will change or they will change if you hang around a little longer.

girl you got standards and there's someone out there who will go above and beyond them cause your too freakin fab my kab!